Heyyyyyy guys.
So itās been a long whileā¦last post was September. And boy, did things happen. Letās do a little update on life and writingā¦.
October 1st, I found out I was pregnant again. Yay!
November 4th, I miscarried again š¦
November 6th, I met with my chiropractor, a family friend weāve known for years, and he could tell something was off. He adjusted me, then took me into his office and said, āTalk to me. Somethingās wrong. Tell me whatās going on.ā
Floodgates open, I proceeded to vent all my anger, despair, frustration, and fears to him. Things I had only spoken to my husband about, and problems to which we didnāt have answers. Was something wrong with me? Would I ever be able to have another child? How could we possibly afford what it might take to fix me, physically or mentally or otherwise? As I type this, my chest is tight, and there are tears in my eyes, remembering the pain I felt that day, and how hard it was to let it go, to actually voice the fears in my heart.
Bless his heart, my chiropractor listened, and he helped. By the next Monday, I had a sample pack of a mineral supplement heād recommended. I took it all that week and actually was able to manage my life. When I ran out the following week, I crashed again, and realized I needed that help consistently.
Since November 18th, Iāve been taking this supplement. While I still have rough days, I havenāt had any so low as before. Itās been a huge blessing in my life, and I thank God that He sent me to my chiropractor that day and knew that for our circumstances, this is what I needed.
I won NaNoWriMo on Nov 23rd, a whole week early. I got through Christmas mostly unscathed despite some fears. The holidays in general werenāt as fun for me this year as they usually are, and Iām still not sure why. Now itās 2015 and I have new goals, and a new perspective.
Iām 50K into my current novel, a YA modern mythology fantasy about Phoenixes, and I havenāt yet hit the āI hate thisā point, so Iām hoping Iāll get it drafted by Feb. 13th.
I am registered for #Storymakers16, and signed up for a query critique with an agent Iām super excited to meet.
Iāve started writing some fanfiction in my spare time because I love it and itās fun and a little therapeutic for me.
My boys are six and three, and are likeā¦kids, now. Theyāre not babies anymore, though I love that my three-year-old still cuddles with me every day.
My husband and kids are all happier when Iām happy, and I have my vitamins to thank for that. I no longer get drawn into a downward spiral of negative thoughts, and Iām able to get more done throughout the day, whether thatās work, writing, or play.
I couldnāt be more grateful.
Life is sometimes hard, but things always get better. They get brighter. In the darkness, itās hard to remember what the light feels like, hard to remember it will come. But it does.
Thank you to those who supported me and cheered me on through the last three months. You made the dark days bearable.
May your life always be filled with light. ā¤
-DC